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10 September 2007 @ 07:38 pm
Part 1A: Letters and Such  
*headdesk* So sorry for the wait, guys. Paige and I are completely buried underneath a mountain of schoolwork, but fear not! We haven't given up on Teddy so soon! Unfortunately, this part still isn't completely finished, so I've split it up into two parts to keep you guys at least a little bit satisfied. :/

And so, without any further ado, I bring you

31 July, 1997

Dearest Baby Lupin,

I’m sorry about the “Baby” bit – I know it’s embarrassing, but we don’t have a name picked out for you, or rather two, because we also don’t know if you’re a boy or girl. Really, the only thing we know is that you exist, which is good enough for me, I assure you! And by “we,” of course, I mean your dad and me – anyway, we haven’t talked about names yet. Haven’t really had time, you see. We only found out about you a week ago, and there’s so much awful stuff going on now it’s easy to forget everything else.

By the way, wotcher and all that – I am your mother (!), Nymphadora Tonks Lupin, though no one calls me “Nymphadora” if they know what’s good for them. Mostly I’m just Tonks, though Remus (your dad) and Dad (my dad) call me Dora. Once you’re old enough to talk, I expect you’ll call me “Mum,” which is a very strange thing to think about. By the time you’re old enough to read this, you’ll probably call me silly and paranoid – I can already hear you saying, “Hello, Mum! What’re these letters for, when I’m right here and you’re right there and both of our mouths are mostly functional?” etc. You see, it’s that bad stuff I mentioned earlier. I’m afraid I won’t be around when you’re old enough to talk or old enough to read or old enough to be snarky at me. However, if I am, you can be sure that I will ground you from whatever it is you like - be it Quidditch, Chocolate Frogs, or Bundimuns (though why you would like Bundimuns, I have no idea) – for mouthing off at me, as any good mother would. Still, I’d like to be optimistic and tell you that I will be around no matter what, but since Dumbledore and Mad-eye died, I just can’t. They were the last ones anyone expected to die, and if they can die, then I certainly can.

And so I had an idea. I haven’t told Remus yet, though I’m sure he will like it, so I am telling you. Anyway, I’m making you a scrapbook. It’s more of a precaution than anything else, just in case things take a turn for the worse and we snuff it. This way, you’ll know all about your dad and me and why we’re doing what we’re doing. I also want you to know what it’s like to live in England right now, so that you’ll understand why it’s so important to us to fight – and to die fighting, if we have to - against Voldemort and everything he stands for. I sincerely hope you never have to see this scrapbook, because if you do, it means we’re no longer with you, and that scares me like you wouldn’t believe. If you don’t have us, though, you’ll still have Harry – if nothing else, Remus and I will make sure of that.

Well. That was depressing. Oh! Speaking of Harry, Remus and I have got to dash – it’s his 17th birthday and we’re invited to a rather exclusive birthday bash. And by “we,” I mean, of course, all of the little Lupin family – can’t really leave you behind, now can I?

Lots of Love,

Mum (Merlin, it’s weird to sign that.)

PS: Back already. Scrimgeour, the Minister of Magic, decided to crash the party, so Remus and I left. Remus feels guilty, because he’s a werewolf and the Ministry doesn’t take kindly to werewolves, so he’s avoiding me now. I do wish he would stop. He’d better before the wedding tomorrow!

1 August, 1997

“You know,” Tonks whispers into Remus’ ear, “I’m rather glad we had a private wedding. All of this is nice, but it’s a bit too nice, don’t you think?” Bill and Fleur kiss, bringing the ceremony to a close, and, sighing happily, Tonks rests her head on Remus’ shoulder

Remus swallows thickly. He feels guilty, as he always does and always has and always will, and her head on his shoulder feels heavier than the world. Quietly and hoarsely, he manages to say, “It is rather extravagant.”

They stand up and clap together as the newest Mr. and Mrs. Weasley break away from each other, both beaming blissfully. A few rows ahead of Remus and Tonks, Fred wolf whistles again, while George, still a little pale after the loss of his ear, whoops raucously. “Extravagant,” Tonks mutters beside him. “Lavish. Excessive. Profusely opulent, if you will. All synonyms for humiliating.” She glances at him out of the corner of her eye, grinning widely.

Remus tries to smile back, but guilt prevents him. Instead, he turns to face the aisle and says, loudly enough for her to hear him over the riotous cheering, “How very true.” He hates how formal he sounds, how cold.

She curls her arms around him, hugging him from behind, and she says lightly, “Stop worrying, dear, it’s unbecoming. You are attending a wedding, which, if you haven’t noticed, is quite the rare occurrence nowadays, and you are acting like a piece of wood. It’s not polite.”

Remus doesn’t know how it’s possible, but he feels even guiltier – probably because he knows that she is right. He apologizes automatically, and without releasing him, she moves to his side to get a better view of the bride and groom as they walk down the aisle. When Bill and Fleur pass by, Tonks cheers happily and Remus forces himself to smile. At the sight of Bill’s scars, Remus remembers Tonks’ pleading with him in the Hospital Wing, only a few short months ago – “But I don’t care, either, I don’t care! I’ve told you a million times…”

But I care, Remus thinks as he looks at the jubilant woman at his side. I care more than you'll ever know, Dora. He kisses her on the forehead and wishes he deserved her, because he knows that he doesn't, and he can do nothing to change that unfortunate fact.
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Heavily Medicated: & FOR A GOOD CAUSE! MY SANITY!: HP-Tonk/Remus/Multicoloredpupsdwlikeebeinlost on September 11th, 2007 01:02 am (UTC)


Very touching and caring. I loved it loads.
peskywhistpawpeskywhistpaw on September 11th, 2007 01:07 am (UTC)
Aw, I love the drawing and the invitation... and pretty much all of it, really. ♥
Yeah, that's me...: Lupin [close up]corellianjedi2 on September 11th, 2007 01:14 am (UTC)
I don't even know what to say! I love it!
Wow. just... Great job!
So sweet!
Shane: ceddiggorynotminefrankenshane on September 11th, 2007 01:15 am (UTC)
...: HP: Hedwig in the epilogue1voice on September 11th, 2007 01:22 am (UTC)
Oh, this is awesome! You guys are really great, I know how taxing school can be so it's just amazing you got this out for us! Thank you, I appreciate it!

Your Tonks is great and your Remus is spot on, as well. :D
yoursetcetera on September 11th, 2007 01:36 am (UTC)

“You know,” Tonks whispers into Remus’ ear, “I’m rather glad we had a private wedding. All of this is nice, but it’s a bit too nice, don’t you think?”

This is the kind of thing that, for me, makes it okay to ship Remus/Tonks in addition to Remus/Sirius -- because here you know that Tonks really does understand him, and wants to make him happy. That was badly explained, but I hope you understand.
malinbemalinbe on September 11th, 2007 01:44 am (UTC)
Hey! I liked it, though it was SHORT! Come on, girls (I assume you're girls. I'm not sure), make it longer the next time!

Anyway, I loved all of it. I loved the art and I loved the writing. Keep it coming!!
Ashley: such a ladymoonythoughts on September 11th, 2007 01:59 am (UTC)
Poor Remus, being all down in the dumps :( So sad, but I love this. More, soon, please! This just made my day.
Its a Fraked-Up World: Teddy bathslizetm on September 11th, 2007 02:00 am (UTC)
Oh..*sniff* Every time I read fic where Tonks is writing something for Teddy to read when he's old enough make me cry, and since this project of your is the ultimate fan fic of this type it makes me even more emotional.

Great job! I love the invitation and the awesome fan art. Keep it up, can't wait for the next instalment!
Ellin: excitement; domsapphire_child on September 11th, 2007 02:30 am (UTC)
UPDATE! Omgz, why are there not more comments? This was lovely! Can't wait for the next bit ^_^
top_hatted_girl on September 11th, 2007 02:48 am (UTC)
Uuuuuuupdate! Well done on the excerpt; it makes me sad.

Remus = piece of wood = hee hee.
Amber: HP ANI rocks fallprincessnothing on September 11th, 2007 03:27 am (UTC)
oh. so sad but so good.

i think this is the first fic that has made me tolerate (maybe like?) Tonks. i'm too much of a hardcore R/S shipper, but this is wonderfully well written--i'm starting to like her...which is unfortunate, now she's dead.

anyways, well done!
sailingwest: TonksLupinsailingwest on September 11th, 2007 03:33 am (UTC)
Lovely as always,though so sad to see Remus feeling so badly about himself. Though dear Tonks is always has a great attitude. Thank you for the update! The artwork and invitation was really neat as well.
B)mimes on September 11th, 2007 04:30 am (UTC)
You're going to convert all the Tonks haters, I know it.

This was absolutely lovely, can't wait for more =)
Agent Nudie Pantsmissski on September 11th, 2007 04:33 am (UTC)
Lovely! Gorgeous even! :]
I love your Tonks, she's perfect in my mind!
The artwork is so very pretty and the writing and ideas and such are woonderful :] Take your time in updating, loves, we understand (or at least some of us do) that life is unfortunately demanding and such. We'll all be waiting :]
brigitte: [movie] ana; oh fuckscullyish on September 11th, 2007 05:27 am (UTC)
update!! this is lovely! and as everyone has said, don't stress yourself out trying to update - we can wait :]
Gobstonesgobstones on September 11th, 2007 02:40 pm (UTC)

Lovely chapter/part, very lovely indeed - poor poor Remus and all his doubtfulness and Tonks is so bright and in-character it's just wonderful. Brilliant. <3
it's Janine, bitch.: gentlemans drinktrulydemure on September 11th, 2007 06:09 pm (UTC)
Aghhhh, I just love how worrisome and fretty Remus is in this one. And of course Tonks' urging him to be at least partially cheerful. So nice! And the invitation of course, very creative. :D
Buffy Summersbtvsbonesheroes on September 11th, 2007 10:40 pm (UTC)
Great job guys!! =D loved it! short, but sweet!
Just Call Me Mari: {DH} - R/T and Teddyannamel on September 12th, 2007 01:36 am (UTC)
He kisses her on the forehead and wishes he deserved her, because he knows that he doesn't, and he can do nothing to change that unfortunate fact.

WOW! That was beautiful and so Remus-like! Great job!
(Anonymous) on September 12th, 2007 06:20 pm (UTC)
"can’t really leave you behind, now can I?"

Favorite Part lol
amelia: misc: hp trlxanya on September 14th, 2007 10:43 am (UTC)
Awww, lovely. But I'm sad that they're dead. oh, there's the understatement of the century... These are really gorgeous stories you guys write, and I love all the details you put in. Thanks for all the work, and don't worry - I'm sure everyone knows how it feels to be overcomes by piles of stuff for school...
Dani: jamesyrockenkeli_666 on September 14th, 2007 11:15 pm (UTC)
By the way, wotcher and all that – I am your mother (!), Nymphadora Tonks Lupin, though no one calls me “Nymphadora” if they know what’s good for them.
the whole letter is so damn funny! so Tonks-like xD
now, Remus... poor thing *pouts*

great job xD xD xD
Jackson's Mum: SBP Floats your stoatmugglemomjsw on September 20th, 2007 11:27 pm (UTC)
Oh, it's even lovelier than I expected!! Great job, you two!!!
Panini: Harry Potter » Dedicationmyfeetareugly on September 23rd, 2007 02:43 am (UTC)
Ugh, and I thought I wouldn't get emotional about anymore.
dirigibilitydirigibility on September 26th, 2007 05:20 pm (UTC)
This is amazingly good and amazingly sad and exactly spot on. And I am now slightly over-emotional. *wibbles*
Sarahmediate89 on October 11th, 2007 03:16 pm (UTC)
It's been over a month now. What's the dealio?
Teahteahweah on October 27th, 2007 02:31 pm (UTC)
Are you guys updating soon? =)
purely_distel: HP - Fangirls since 1997purely_distel on October 28th, 2007 10:53 am (UTC)
*claps loudly* brilliant! It is original, in character and just wonderful! I especially liked the bit where Tonks wrote Teddy:
Remus feels guilty, because he’s a werewolf and the Ministry doesn’t take kindly to werewolves, so he’s avoiding me now
Because the way she says it just shows again how she doesn't care about Remus being a werewolf! She simply says "because he's a werewolf" and after that? Nothing really. No "And please Teddy, don'T think he's a bad person because ... yadda yadda" no, she just says it because it's a fact but nothing more.

*hugs tonks close*
Deemeowbooks on November 5th, 2007 07:20 am (UTC)
This is so SWEET! I love this idea and... poor Teddy, but your Tonks shines right through.
(Anonymous) on December 3rd, 2007 07:33 am (UTC)
Dude, it's been almost three months. *prods lj community* Are you still alive?
Deliadee_lirious on January 24th, 2008 11:59 pm (UTC)
oh I love Tonk's letter and I loled at:

“Hello, Mum! What’re these letters for, when I’m right here and you’re right there and both of our mouths are mostly functional?”

because it feels like such a marauder thing, something that I could hear James or Sirius saying during the Hogwarts Years.

The memory is perfect, sweet and sad and bitter and so very Remus.

I can't wait for more of this!
(Anonymous) on February 9th, 2008 02:35 am (UTC)
Have you been killed? :(
Maryfadewiththesong on February 29th, 2008 04:23 am (UTC)
Love it! This is absolutely brilliant. I stumbled across this community a few days ago and I had homework to do or something... I don't remember. But tonight, I had homeword, and it's super boring. So, I was like... "Hey! I'll go back to that community and read whatever is there!" Good procrastination plan, really. Loved this. The writing, the drawings, Tonks' notes on the wedding invitation. It's all quite fabulous. Can't wait to read more.
Deemeowbooks on July 30th, 2008 03:20 am (UTC)
Months later this is still lovely! Bravo on all the work you've put into these few installments. Even if you've left this idea behind what's here is gold and for that I thank you.